When I was a child I had the opportunity to host Yulia in my home.
She was one of the new immigrants in the great immigration wave of the 90's - a solitary woman who was a very talented pianist but did not know a word of Hebrew and was frightened and lost.
In her honor, my mother moved heaven and earth to bring a piano into our home.
As an 8-year-old, I watched Yulia blossom, finally breathing, finding herself again, and even smiling.
One time she invited me to join her - and thus it happened that she became my piano teacher.
Although we had no common language, we managed to understand each other and I succeeded in learning to play.
A year later, Yulia left and the piano left with her.
About two years ago I received a gift:
an out-of-tune, squeaky piano, beautiful and tired.
"You said this was your dream" my benefactor told me as I looked at him with excitement and fear –
I have no time to practice.
The piano is so old and out of tune.
I will never know how to play like a girl who has been studying her whole life.
I can't meet my benefactor’s expectations!
and I'm afraid to confront my own…
I realized that I would never be able to fulfill my dream,
and the piano's presence only burdened me -
reminding me that I had missed the train, lost my chance,
that I would never become a pianist.
What would you advise me to do? - Give up? Try? The main thing is to play?
In one of the dark periods of my life, the piano was medicine for me.
I started playing again and that became my safe, peaceful place.
It reminds me of my mother's sweet smells, clears my head, and heals my soul.
I don't need to be a musician or a composer.
I don't have to compare myself to someone who studied piano her whole life.
My benefactor expected that I would be happy,
and what about my expectations?
I understood that they were the real barrier preventing me from fulfilling the dream.
And when I told them to scram -- the dream was fulfilled.
DO YOU WANT TO BE A HEBREW SPEAKER?
You are the only thing preventing yourself from fulfilling the dream!
I invite you to get the better of yourselves;
To fulfill your dreams and goals - starting today
Wishing you to dream big
and enjoy your being
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